Jared Morris

wow

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Sat, 27 Sep 2003 15:08:11 GMT

i think since the livejournal is a trend again. I should start writing in mine. I had the urge to update and talk with the internet world about some of my problems. I really have a few but they can be solved very easily. i started working out like crazy. I have a desire by next summer to take my shirt off at the beach(I could have done it this summer) but with working and never having time to do anything i didnt. My dreads have come along in since and strength. I'm soo happy I decided not to cut my hair. I love it too much. i'm playing in a band again. We are ok. We need a new drummer and then things will be straight. otherwise i've been in a fruitful mood.

Vacation #2

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 Aug 2003 03:15:18 GMT

I just got back from 4 fun filled days in Virginia for my family reunion. It was fun. Lots of good food, awesome cousins, and fun filled activities. I did a comedy skit that actually made my family laugh. go me. I come home today and my guitar is messed up ruining my mood. Ummm otherwise I got home safe and I dont know what else to write.

yo

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Thu, 07 Aug 2003 23:10:24 GMT

Well lets see. Life is ok. I still dont have a girlfriend( which isnt a bad thing) i still have no band, my schedule for school sucks real bad, i'm hungry. I want to make out with a really cute girl, I want an amazing band that everyone likes and things i'm hot when I sing ot play my guitar. basically my life is a bunch of things I need and want. FUCK you.

yep

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Thu, 03 Jul 2003 18:17:48 GMT

i went to georgia, I came home. I have dreads, I think jena malone is hot.

also

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Sun, 20 Apr 2003 03:45:19 GMT

its starting to get to me how everyone has somebody and I dont. Or how the girls' i'm friends with their b/f's tell them not to hang out with me cause they feel threatned. jesus.

you will always have this oath, you will always have this friend

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Sun, 20 Apr 2003 03:42:49 GMT

Ahh i'm so bored right now. i changed the strings on both my guitars. i'm considering going vegan in a few weeks. A change in my life. Ok i've not had a beautiful woman in 2 years to actually call my g/f. I just want to make out with a girl for a few minutes ya know? cuddle and shit. ahh man. i never have anything fun to say on this journal anymore. oh well. later

nice

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Sun, 13 Apr 2003 13:36:39 GMT

AFuneralnMyBrain: but listen , i think ur a wonderful and good friend unlike alotta ppl, u wouldnt give up on some1 until they fuck u over, and ur hair is great and u have beautiful dark eyes. i dont think u have anytthing to worry about

That made me soo happy today. Thanks to anybody who actually cares about me and is my TRUE friend.

tired.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Sat, 12 Apr 2003 04:18:39 GMT

bored, nobody gives a shit about me. whatever.

i just realized

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Mar 2003 03:19:56 GMT

that the past 3 entiries i have are all a month apart. jesus no wonder why i get soo moody. I gotta start writing in here more and express myself.

hmm

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Mar 2003 03:10:36 GMT

i havent updated this journal in a while. umm Thanks to jaydecay for replying in my journal and stuff. i'm tired and i want to watch movies. later

and its not getting any easier

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Feb 2003 04:47:57 GMT

its been a while since i updated this shit. Umm I have started a band. I'm on guitar and vocals, xtian is playin geetar, ryan is drummin, kiel is singin/screamin, and hopefully pete will play some bass. this band is going to rock my socks. Hopefully it will get me somewhere in life instead of feeling sorry for myself. I hate doing that. but i look at certain aspects of my life and wonder why I'm not as handsome as some of the guys, not as tall, skinny, why dont i have a g/f. I have noticed this and my mom has too. All the girls i know are my "friend". None of them want more. I seriously think maybe i am too nice? not like anyone is going to read this piece of shit journal i have. I actually forgot about this thing.

new computer

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Fri, 03 Jan 2003 03:49:38 GMT

so this is my first post on my new computer. YAY! i got this ill dell computer that plays music like you wont believe. ok so i want to start a band. my own band. something IM STARTING. umm i dont know what else to say. bye

more quizzes

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Dec 2002 19:03:15 GMT

What's your sexual appeal?
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wow. THis may explain why i'm gay.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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i definately am emo.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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interesting. I dont hate things that much tho.

What swear word are you?
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This explains my mood half the time.

quizzes.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Dec 2002 18:44:44 GMT

How Emotional Are You?
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soo sore

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Dec 2002 18:32:56 GMT

I went to the show last night at the port jeff elks lodge. Strongpoint, Gabriel, heads vs. Breakers, The reformation, and My new band Another Day. I got pissed cause at the last minute they tell me that they dont want me to play the show cause they dont want to fuck up. they want to be flawless. That was a smack in the face. I felt like shit when xtian told me that. Still kinda mad but i supported them and sang along on some parts of the songs. All the bands were incredibly good last night. I danced my ass off again for strongpoint and gabriel. The new gabriel songs made me have a low key orgasm. The breakdowns were so crazy. Ok i seriously was in a good mood for a few weeks and now it seems like everything is turning to shit cause of my attitude. It started yesterday cause my dad calls me 2 days before x-mas and starts asking me if i'm buying him a gift and all this bullshit. he hasnt talked to me since august/september. Then i got jackie Lucas mad at me. I really need someone to talk to before i go crazy and end up in an institution. Then on top of that last night i fell on my knee at the show and it hurts like hell. I am going to seriously get arthritis before i turn 21. I love LIHC.

i would rather get beat up for what is right

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Fri, 06 Dec 2002 05:42:06 GMT

so today it snowed. haha. i was at school at 8 in the mornin. then i had a 1 oclock class. then all classes from 12:30 on are cancelled. so i took jackie to school this morning. and i asked her if she needed a ride home and she said She wanted to hang out for a little bit more. thats cool. so i saw jaimie and went to talk to her about somethings. then around 1 they tell us we have to leave the school. so i go looking for jackie and shes nowhere to be found. hmm. so i left and drove jaimie to her car and mylen home. but on the way home i stopped at jackies house in hopes she would be home but she wasnt there. he mom was pretty upset. but what could i do? She ended up callin her mother to get her otherwise. I dont know I'm always doing something nice for someone and i never get a "thank you" or "thanks for caring" I get it sometimes but i wish the person would really mean it. As i sit crying writing this i dont know. Some people dont see that my heart is in a good place. blah. whatever man.

blahhh

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Dec 2002 04:06:19 GMT

You know when you're sitting on a chair and you lean back so you're just on two legs then you lean too far and you almost fall over but at the last second you catch yourself? I feel like that all the time.

I saw that in jesse's profile and i fell in love with it. Well i told jackie today that since we've been hanging out non stop that i kinda liked her and what not. THat didnt work out too well. Oh well sometimes its best to remain friends with someone. Ahh New band real soon. its an all sXe emo/screamo/hardcore band. Its going to be off the hook. ohh well school is almost out again woohoo. ok bye

this quiz is accurate too.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Mon, 18 Nov 2002 17:59:46 GMT

What long island hardcore band are you?
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I love on the might of princes. Such an amazing live show.

wow. these quizzes are accurate.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Mon, 18 Nov 2002 17:32:07 GMT

How BLACK are you?

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How BLACK are you?

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wow. i'm not even white or black hhahahaha.

these neon lights on my heart still blinking vacancy

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Sat, 16 Nov 2002 06:38:46 GMT

Well yes there are neon lights on my heart blinking vacancy but whatever. SO its been a while since i updated this journal. Where to start. a lot of stuff has happened. My mom has to get surgery. thats not cool. My band is starting to take off a little bit. we arent gettin famous or anything but we might have a show in the city real soon. I got my new guitar amp. A marshall 1960A cabinet and a crate gx900h head. I'm saving my money the next couple of months for a peavey 5150II head. That head is so amazing. SPeaking of amazing. My friend xtians(christian) band ANOTHER DAY is amazing. fucking LONG ISLAND CREW. Old school hardcore with a mix of metal breakdowns. Kinda like us. Our Only Hope and Another Day are going to be the leaders of the hardcore scene one day. The side project I'm starting is going to be sick. Influences like Her last words, Saves the day, Thursday, and so many more bands are going into this project. As for my love life, who gives a fuck? I do occasionally, but whatever man. I like how girls feel the need to tell me about every guy who flirts with them, the talking about their ex-boyfriends, guys who they are seeing now who after 3 dates they are trying to get into their pants. I don't like that. I may be an asshole for saying it but It makes me feel like shit. BIG TIME. I dont like go around talking about how many girls I see oh wait, I dont fucking see any. hahahahhaaha. Wow. I feel so much better now. Ohh shit party at rickys tomorrow. Maybe i'll break my edge and drink 6 beers and smoke 2 bols. hahaha. right.

"I'll be here tomorrow. and i'll be here next year just like this X on the back of my hand. not going nowhere.-Bane

stop screaming i love you.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Tue, 05 Nov 2002 23:11:29 GMT

Its been a while since updated this son bitch. Wow umm i dunno where to start. Umm i'm not even going to update now oh well. i'll do it later or some other time.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Tue, 22 Oct 2002 22:28:06 GMT

I went to school today. took a midterm for my communications class. hopefully i did well on it. I didnt go to my gym class or my psychology class. I have a paper due in a week and I have yet started the motherfucker. It looks like i need to get cracking. i have been so lethargic the past few days. I'm goin crazy uugh. I hope i do ok this semester. All my classes are a pain in my ass. I'm going fucking nuts. I said that already. Jesus christ. I gotta go to band practice. The only thing that goes right for me.

why cant he see himself alone..

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Thu, 17 Oct 2002 01:22:26 GMT

the new me commenced today. I went to school and talked to a few of my buddies but i didnt get to see cynthia. I wanted to see how she was feeling since her break up. Her and ryan totally hate each other now. After going out almost and year. They have only been seperated a week and Ryan has another girlfriend. Thats real dick of him. The only bad part about this is I have feelings for cynthia and i'm sorta friends with ryan. but he moved on. Everyone has told me to go for cynthia but i feel weird doing it. I'm always in this weird dilemma. The sad part is cynthia didnt do anything wrong. Ryan started treating her like shit. I think of him as a nice person but the things he said to her are ridiculous. She needs someone who will treat her right. I have to give it time cause i know she still loves him. So fucking confused. Eric basically told me not to hold back my feelings and just let her know. Thats what I am going to do then. I want to be happy and I want her to be happy. I've known her for 3 years and I want her to be happy.

its funny the people who you thought hated you like you.

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Wed, 16 Oct 2002 03:43:26 GMT

I go for a drive to relieve some stress and i go to sevs to get some mineral water and i run into nicole seibert and cassy lorusso. Cassy comes up to me and says, "jared, i really miss you." i felt really touched. eventho we never had conversations in high school that often. So her nicole and I sat outside 7 11 and talked for a good half and hour about things. well after that i'm back here on my computer and eric is giving me lessons again.

XxsXeJaredxX: you make me look at life in a whole different perception
nadesico123: why?
XxsXeJaredxX: cause its like i see life on my side which is worryin about everything
XxsXeJaredxX: on your perspective its all about not caring
XxsXeJaredxX: and its better than way
nadesico123: caring
nadesico123: is
nadesico123: like...
nadesico123: ummmm
nadesico123: caring is like ice cream
nadesico123: if you eat it everyday and all the time
nadesico123: it ruins your teeth
nadesico123: makes you throw up
nadesico123: because it's to much at once
XxsXeJaredxX: like chris eating taffy
nadesico123: but if you have it once and a while....it's worth it...the sweetness is sooooooooo good
nadesico123: care about what matter's to you..and is worth mattering over
nadesico123: rid yourself of the excess
nadesico123: and realize...were 19..and got it pretty good...and hey...your doing alrite
XxsXeJaredxX: true.
nadesico123: seriously...we all got our problems...and it always feels like the world is up our ass's and we have it worse then everybody else
nadesico123: but honestly...
nadesico123: we don't have cancer..good friends
nadesico123: and well..you have feelings for a girl
nadesico123: and your playing in a kick mother fucking ass band
nadesico123: have a steady job
nadesico123: a car
nadesico123: and mother fucking dreads
XxsXeJaredxX: lol
nadesico123: jared....there are kids in ethiopia that can't even have food to make it through the day.
nadesico123: life is good man

he summed it up. Fuckin life rules and its to short to be pissed off all the time.

put the barrel down your throat pull the fucking trigger choke

bbjcore69@hotmail.com — Wed, 16 Oct 2002 01:28:05 GMT

well today was a very eventful day. i just killed a mosquito. Umm school was alright boring a usual. Came home worked on my history paper for a little bit and i think it came out good. i got a quiz tomorrow in that class i still have yet to study for. Ahhh. I love being a lazy motherfucker. I fucking <3 my guitar right now. Its the only thing thats keeping me sane and from having a crazy murder spree. SPeaking of murders how about this sniper motherfucker? The cops tell him to turn himself in. Which is the police departments way of saying "ohh shit We can't get you ourselves." lol. ridiculous. I'm also sorry for running over that cat today. Just the sound of its skull cracking under my tires made me smile. ok i'm going to kings park now to do some excavating.

"If time heals all wounds then why am I still bleeding?"- its all about strongpoint